Independent woman!

She is an independent woman. But at the same time, she wants to be loved. She wants to be treated with care by her beloved ones. She is an independent woman. But at the same time, she wants to be loved. She wants to be treated with care by her beloved ones.

She is juggling between work, studies and social life. Maintaining a relationship and putting effort is one of the hardest things for her. But you know what? She tried her best. But people tend to ignore her efforts and capabilities on everything and she gets tired of trying.

Her other half ignored her the whole day. Focusing on his passion, work and friends. She is missing him so much but she couldn't do anything. She only wanted attention and a little bit of time. She demanded a moral support that she couldn't get from anyone from the time being.

Putting efforts & seeing all your efforts goes to waste is one of the hardest things to see. People around her have taken her for granted. She is worrying how to make more money for herself and her family. Just because she is an independent woman and she can earn her own money.

As an independent woman, she doesn't want to trouble anyone with her problems. When people trying to help her, she insisted on doing by herself. I admire her determination. I admire independent women all over the world. Not everyone can make their own ways in making money.

Islamic Studies Bukan minat aku!

Sebenarnya masa sebelum aku isi online untuk masuk U , minat aku bukan dalam bidang yang aku ambik sekarang tau tapi lebih kepada minat dalam ilmu psikologi. Logiknya aku lebih suka psikologi sebab ia banyak mengkaji ataupun kita banyak belajar berkaitan mental. So aku suka part tu. Sejak zaman aku sekolah menengah aku memang terlampau taksub pasal benda-benda ni. Aku suka baca buku tentang pemikiran lelaki dan perempuan, mental healty, dan sebagainya. Kalau bukak je search google haa benda ni yang baca aku search and baca.

Tapi,

Impian aku nak jadi psychologist tak tercapai sebab ini minat aku tapi bukan minat umi and abah aku. Okey masa aku isi online dulu, aku tak isi upu sebab aku malas nak tunggu result upu, bagi aku belajar mana-mana pun okey. Asalkan aku tak goyang kaki dekat rumah walaupun sebelum aku sambung belajar aku ada keje cikgu dalam dua tahun based on my STAM result.

Then aku isi dua kolej masa tu, tempat first aku daftar course BIS (Bachelor in Islamic studies) dekat tempat aku sekarang sebab tu nampak cam ala ustazah sikit. Yang kedua aku ambik course Bachelor in Psycology. Aku dapat dua-dua. Aku tunjuk result tu dekat family aku, yang sedihnya family aku cakap depa suka kalau aku ambik bidang yang boleh jadi 'cikgu' ( TAKPA AKU PUN MINAT JADI CIKGU SEBAB AKU SUKA BUDAK TAPI BUDAK NAKAL AKU CUBIT LAJU LAJU) aku explain bidang yang satu lagi tapi kurang berkesan kut aku explain sebab umi aku tak setuju pun.

" Belajar kerana Allah, sebab mak ayah "

Aku pun redha jelah sambung bidang tu. Aku mengaku awal tu aku cincai je belajar sebab tak minat sangat. Minat tu ada tapi tak banyak. Orang kata mula mula tak minat, lama-lama jatuh cinta. Sebab aku rasa menuntut ilmu tu seronok so aku asah perasaan cinta tu sampai la sekarang. Aku belajar sebab aku nak ilmu.

So pointnya, restu ibu bapa tu sangat lah penting, ia membawa berkat seumur hidup kau. Kalau pun aku ambik course yang aku minat tapi mak ayah aku tak suka. Bukan ke tu sia sia. Yang nak doa kejayaan kita pun depa jugak. Aku anggap belajar merupakan satu keseronokkan dalam hidup aku. Walaupun orang anggap course aku tak ada lah hebat sangat tapi bukan senang duhh bila kau belajar senang , exam susah kemain. Kalau dulu takpe hafal hafal boleh jawab. Sekarang jawapan dalam buku tak dak. Keluar soalan ijtihad mampuih nak jawab. Aku pakai ijtihad sendiri ja selama aku belajar. Haha pun boleh score sebab aku yakin dengan doa ibu bapa aku.

Dan course ni tak ada lah kacang sangat sebab  aku pun ada gak tak leh score. Banyak main HAHA okey dah bye!